Life Of Mox
The closest thing to a personal motto I have is "sociopathy is the only sanity". This phrase came to me because actions and behaviors many would deem sociopathic have often been the only answers to the many problems I've faced throughout my life. The vast majority of people in my life and in my observations have been deluded into passivity which results in their discrimination towards people like me for using these perceived sociopathic means to solve our problems even though they're often the ones creating the situations in which sociopathic behavior is necessary.
If you've read my article I'm A Brony Because Nihilism, which I recommend you read even if you have no interest in pony stuff, I discuss a part of my childhood where violence was the only thing that solved my problems all the while everyone around me tried their damnedest to passify me and get me to just take the abuse and discrimination I was facing. Despite everyone telling me to report harassment, abuse, and bullying, they never did a damn thing about it when I did. And ignoring my harassers did nothing. People who say to just ignore people that bully or harass you don't realize that these kinds of people don't do what they do for a reaction, they do it because they can get away with it and if there is something for them to hurt, they will hurt it. This is why I resorted to violence often in my childhood.
Because everyone was adverse to the use of force despite the fact the things they told me to do instead did absolutely nothing and often made things worse, I was punished for daring to hurt people that hurt me. I had two options: resist the abuse and face compounding punishment for standing up for myself or take the abuse like the good little subhuman child they wanted me to be while also submitting to their control so I could advance in schooling. To spoil the story, I wasn't even allowed in high school/upper secondary school.
I had to substitute an actual school by going to a behavioral health "school" that was almost entirely wards of the state and juvenile delinquents with actual criminal convictions. The place had mag-locked doors and every single fucking thing you did was monitored and recorded. Both on paper and on camera. You think your average public school treats kids as subhuman rodents to be controlled and monitored? Try a literal fucking prison where you are just subhuman criminal trash treated the same as actual prisoners even if you have no criminal history at all. And unlike normal school where even bullies twice your size bawl their eyes out and tattle the moment you lay a finger on them, I was actually beaten and assaulted at this place a few times and guess who faced the punishment? That's right, yours truly. Even when I was the victim of violent crime where I wasn't even using force to try to defend myself, I was still labeled the fucking problem.
I left my initial school voluntarily and they subsidized my tuition at the prison school since it was the only other place I could go. Then I was supposed to switch to an actual school after a year at the prison school but the day before I was to finally return to a proper school and advance my schooling, the school decided I was no longer allowed to attend because I had threatened people who assaulted me. Because I dared have an emotional outburst over being beaten and assaulted, this was used as evidence to keep me out of schooling where I could actually do something with my school life. I never even committed an act of violence even to defend myself at this place unlike the initial school. After another semester of being a good little Moxy and putting up with the abuse, starting the first day of the next semester, I was transferred to a different prison school and allowed to attend one measly little word processing class at the normal school which I didn't even get to pick. I came home that day, played some Fortnite and never returned to school again.
My childhood is why I hold many of my beliefs. I am so opposed to passivity because it has only resulted in harm to me and my hurting others to stop them from hurting me was the only thing that helped. It's so ironic that in trying so hard to create an environment where there is no violence, that made an environment where violence was the only viable solution to my problems. I care about privacy stuff not because I learned about the Snowden Revelations or privacy YouTubers made me care but because I've lived in absolute surveillance and have had every single fucking thing I do be recorded, written down, and used against me with missing context. Even though I don't buy into most conspiracy theories and view most conspiracy theorists as essentially just counter-culture hipsters that just lap up alternate narratives as opposed to mainstream narratives, I do agree with their attitudes because I've lived under the absolute control of those who "want the best for me". I'm anti-regulation on most things not out of some libertarian "muh freedum" bullshit but because the very regulation most people think is sane and completely rational is why it's so hard for me to advance in life and I'm restricted from many things almost everyone else has access to, essentially creating a decentralized social credit system. I'm a child liberationist not out of some held-on teenage rebellion but because fucking adults and their control over me as a child didn't keep me safe or help me grow, restrictions cast upon me as a child have only caused me great harm, physically and psychologically and most of the problems I face as an adult are rooted in the restrictions and punishments cast upon me as a child.
As a child I had a work ethic, I wanted to learn and work to advance my life. In fact I was always jacked off for how intelligent, mature, and hardworking I was but because I was just a subhuman child, I couldn't do a damn thing to advance my life or escape the abuse I faced and had to endure it if I wanted even a chance at achieving my goals. But because I couldn't take the abuse, any chance at achieving my educational and therefore career goals was snuffed out by the no-good rotten adults that treat children's lives as their playthings. A child doesn't advance their life by hard work and studying, they advance it by kissing the asses of the adults who own them and putting up with the systematic abuse they face.
I'm The Moxy, Baby!
The world is riddled with people, often labeled psychopaths, who aim to control others and hurt them. People have been conditioned into believing that all violence is bad unless those in the right class enact said violence. These psychopaths rule the passive populace and when there's someone who's willing to resist or even fight the psychopath's control, the passive populace then labels the one resisting the psychopath's harm and control as the true psychopath that must be stopped. I label those willing to use non-passive means against those who aim to control and harm them as sociopaths. The psychopath is born with a disregard for others and is willing to commit harm against them for their own selfish means while the sociopath who's molded throughout their life into someone capable of hurting others doesn't always do so for their own selfish means, instead developing these so-called sociopathic traits as a survival mechanism.
Deep down, people know I'm right. We hail police as heroes for using force to stop alleged bad guys. We honor soldiers and veterans whose job it was to kill people. But what differentiates heroes who hurt people from bad guys who hurt people is class, not context. A cop who brutalizes someone unjustly will always have plenty of people who support them regardless of context. The military will be honored regardless of the context of why they kill. But if you're not in a class that's been propagandised as the "good guys", those who commit the same acts of force will be persecuted regardless of context. Barely after primary/grade school, I was labeled a violent lunatic and punished because I hurt people that hurt me and before I was even old enough to legally work, my life plans were ruined by the adults who tried to rule me. If my life was fucked over in a low-stakes environment like childhood schooling, what the fuck does that say to people resisting abuse in actually important situations? This is why violence has become so centralized to the point that should governments want to, they could just conduct a genocide. After all, if you dare raise a hand against a good agent of the law, you're the dangerous criminal, not the Gestapo coming to take you away.
People who are willing to use sociopathic means to defend themselves, others, better the world, or even just escape from systematic abuses I view as the truly sane. They don't take abuse like good little passive sheep that delude themselves into believing they're the rational ones by not resisting the abuse they face. Sociopathy is what's needed to fight psychopathy, not empathy, or understanding, or bullshit activism and protesting. The psychopath don't give a damn about your words and actions unless it materially harms them and will do the bare minimum to appease their protesters if they get too annoying but won't actually change their fundamental behavior. These people don't care about your wellbeing or sanity so why should you care about theirs?
Real life isn't some Kumbaya story where The Better Man™ beats out evil with friendship and understanding. Hell, if you live in some "civilised", "democratic" society, chances are it was built on war and bloodshed, not peaceful protests and understanding. The revolutionaries or soldiers who killed to found your nation are hailed as heroes but if you, measly little citizen, dare raise a finger to power, you're a lunatic. Class, not context. Those who take abuse and rationalize it as the best course of action are the truly delusional, not the sociopaths who have the guts to stand up for themselves.
Written 2026-4-6 Published 2026-5-1